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When I first sat down to write this, is was going to be about a boomer who had to take improv classes to better fit into the corporate culture because his ideas were too rigid, and then found he couldn’t stop saying, “Yes, and,” to everything with disastrous results (again, way too much Twilight Zone during my formative years). I still think that would be interesting, but the character I created below is pretty much a flat stereotype who would have no interest in self-improvement. But I think Rod Serling would be happy to hand this boomer’s own ass to him.
He remembered a time in which what he said was how it went. Because let’s face it, he thought, glancing briefly at the neatly stapled stack of forms in front of him, most people are stupid and want to be told what to do. He remembered all of those eager young workers just starting out—thinking they knew everything, thinking that there was a democracy to decision-making around here—and how he needed to set them right, and set them right quickly.
He watched them come and go; first those they called “Gen X” (Generation Slacker, more like), then the dreaded, coddled Millennials and now the screen-addicted Gen Z. They came into his space, newly educated and eager, trying to change things. None of them understood. None of them got that the workplace was a different world, and their mommies and their daddies were not here to give them a participation trophy, a pat on the head, and bail them out when things got tough. Well. He wasn’t their mommy or their daddy, or maybe one of the two mommies or daddies they had, he thought with an almost imperceptible grimace. He was the boss, he was in charge, and what he says goes.
A finger tapped the top sheet of paper in front of him, lightly, but with authority. The finger was younger than the ones on his own hand, and he resented it. It didn’t help that the fingernail was slicked in a purple varnish and attached to a woman.
“I really need you to look at this Bill,” she had stopped tapping the collection of papers and pushed it closer to him. Bill glanced at the papers, but made no move to collect them.
“William,” he said, looking at the human resources representative evenly.
“I beg your pardon?” she frowned.
“I prefer William,” he said, not breaking his gaze.
She frowned. “I’m really sorry,” she said. “You sign all of your emails ‘Bill.’ I just assumed—”
‘Well, there you go,” Bill said, sitting back in his chair, still ignoring the papers in front of him, keeping his eye contact steady with what he thought was an expression of strength and authority. “You know what they say when you assume something.”
The HR rep said nothing, but sat back in her own chair. Bill thought he saw something shift in her expression. It reminded her of his daughter, during one of the last conversations they had a year ago. Or was it two years ago? He couldn’t remember. But it was a look of calm and understanding. He had celebrated a victory in that moment; he had finally won, he was finally going to have a respectful, and productive relationship with his daughter. Her utterance of, “Okay, Dad,” were the last words he heard from her in possibly two years. She’d come back when she needed something, Bill thought. They always do.
“And what’s that?” The HR rep was speaking to him, but Bill had lost his train of thought.
“What?” he said, blinking for the first time in what might have been several minutes. His eyes stung.
The HR rep sighed. “Never mind. I’ll remember to call you William from now on. Now, William,” Bill thought he heard a tone in the way she said his given name, a name no one had called him since his mother had died, “What you have in front of you is a performance improvement plan.”
“Yes. And?” he said, continuing to pretend the papers didn’t exist.
“And,” she said, pushing the papers toward Bill, this time with clear intent. The paper curled over the edge of the desk and threatened to fall to the floor. Bill decided in advance that, should they do so, he would not pick them up.
“And,” she said, “I need you to look them over and sign them. Now. I believe your manager,” she looked at her laptop screen to confirm, “Joshua. Your manager Joshua has already gone through the information contained in this paperwork during your annual review, correct?”
Bill felt himself getting warm. Yes, Joshua had indeed gone over the information contained in that paperwork with him. Joshua. At least 20 years his junior and full of fake empathy and wishy-washy opinions. Apparently, it’s no longer acceptable to do one’s job. Apparently, one has to wrap everything one says and does with flowery language and with consideration to everyone’s feelings, no matter how fragile they are. Apparently, doing the actual work was no longer the main reason everyone was here; it was about “culture” and “connection” and other C words they painted on the walls and put on posters. Bill smiled. He had a C word for her.
“Joshua has gone over the paperwork with me,” he said, still smiling. His calculated expression had the desired effect; he thought he actually saw the shiver physically run down her spine. Her words and tone, however, suggested otherwise.